Hi, my name is Karst and I’m addicted to social media. *Hello Karst* A year ago I started posting pictures of my home on a almost-daily basis. The last few days I didn’t post anything. I feel like I owe you an explanation.
The last few days I’ve had the flu, which is nothing special. Besides that I’ve been struggling mentally. I had way too high expectations of myself which I could never meet. I also struggle with “imposter syndrome”. This, combined with a fulltime job and a fulltime Instagram prescence made me feel really unhealthy the last few days.
It’s like reality but fake
I love connecting with all of you online, and I love to feel part of something. For a few reasons, I began to feel all of it was super fake and unauthentic. Which made me sad. On HypeAuditor for example I saw that most of the comments on my pictures were classified as “spammy unoriginal” comments. I felt for a while that some people just commented “because algorithm”. I hate that.
Obsession with numbers and statistics
As someone who has worked as a traffic data analyst, I love me some numbers. This gets tricky though when you over-obsess over them. I got way to deep into my statistics, how I “perform”, what I can do better etc. Which distracted me from why I even started doing this. Me losing passion is something I feel like you noticed as well. I posted because I hád to put something up. Not because I wanted to.
A toxic atmosphere
To be honest, the whole Instagram community felt toxic for over a month now. Accusations, gossip, hidden intentions, jealousy: they were way too prevalent. In me ánd (some) of you guys. Besides that, if you’re not doing too well mentally, the worst idea is to look at pictures of people’s lifes that are edited, curated and composed.
What am I going to do from now on? First of all: I’ll probably post less. Which will lead to “worse” numbers, which I will care less about. Besides that, I’ll try to engage just with the actually interested people on the platform. And I’ll comment only when I’m actually interested in a picture/someone.
Some closing thoughts
After #Blogvember, I’ve also noticed a few things. First of all: quantity =/= quality. From the 30 blogs there are about 4 that I actually like and find well written. Also, I like creating narrative based content. Which I want to do more of in the future. But all in its own time, as I juggle this next to my job and personal life. On that note: thanks so much for reading and I’ll see you around!